i love it :)
its so free. There is work to be done.. but that can always come later.
This is the first time during finals week where I'm not dying from stress.
I don't want to say its because I dont care, because I do. Just not enough for me to stress and grope for extra information for that extra point.. that never mattered.
I guess the biggest fear would be getting a grade I don't want. regret. but I don't have that. :)
College.
damn. can't wait for it, but I also don't want it to come.
Its this weird conflicting feeling (although not SO conflicting, i still want to leave :])
I'm finally the top person at highschool. No longer do I feel intimidated by people older than I, because really they're the staff, but I'm cool with the staff and the teachers :).
I don't yearn for fresh faces, fresh community, fresh new life. Its nice, but not necessary.
I'm afraid to move away from the people that have molded me into who I am.
Change. hahaha such an overused word. but really, its the thing coming to me. Its not a matter if I can accept this change, but how well I handle it.
From experiences from COSMOS, I can say that I can... but really those were cool people selected to create a group similar to who I am.
which leads me to this point. I'm going into engineering. Well that's how I'm going to start off. And what worries me is what my friend, who is in college told me, "You'll be married to those books of yours."
me: "D:"
I don't want another four years of studying (not that I did any these four years of highschool at Oxford..). But then again don't I need it? Wouldn't it be in my best decision to?
Damn. Regrets starting to form again. hahaha oh well.
I need to watch some movies!
I also need to start on Heroes, House M.D., and some books (Freakonomics for one).
